January Challenge… My Awakening Experience and Moving On…

images-68Happy Happy 2014 to ALL… May everyone find their magic this year and help light up the darkness in the world… IAM celebrating the New Year here in England… listening to a song from Gary Barlow… ‘Don’t forget where you come from’… what a wonderful thought to begin this New Year… and introduction to this January Challenge…… welcoming in awakening experience’s from people who remember where they come from…

There are still a few dates left to join in this challenge… sharing your own awakening experience… please let me know…  and to everyone who is participating… I thank you so much for sharing… Individually and together we are making such a difference in the world…

Please post your ‘awakening experience’ on your own blog on the scheduled date, using the title ‘January Challenge… My Awakening Experience and Moving On’… link to me somewhere in your blog and the person writing the next post that is filled in, in the schedule… and you can also copy/paste the schedule list at the bottom of your post….

So here goes… My Awakening Experience… Barbara Franken… Me, My Magnificent Self…

Unknown-5It wasn’t a conscious decision that I made… to close down when I was about 7 years old… but my soul thought it an appropriate time to dive fully into my human experience…  I didn’t go quietly though, I cried every night for months, worrying everyone, as they didn’t understand what was happening and couldn’t comfort me… to tell me that everything was going to be OK… that I would awaken at an appropriate time if I chose too… My eyesight had began to deteriorate… I wasn’t able to see the black board at school so well anymore and had to wear horrible glasses… I also experienced many sore throats, eventually having to leave my home and go into hospital to have my tonsils out… I remember these traumatic experiences so well… Physically, Mentally and Emotionally I was a mess and not understanding the significance, took them all into my human experience… I felt lost, abandoned and unimportant… I cried a lot to get attention from others… I became a rebellious teenager and acted without care and attention for myself… as I had now forgotten who I truly was and where I had come from…

Around the age of seventeen, I began to feel this drive to leave my home country, to leave all that I knew and go out and explore unknown territories, meet new people, experience different truths and to find out who I truly was… I arranged to work in a hotel in Switzerland from the age of 18… I packed all my possessions, said goodbye to my family and never looked back…

For a few years I moved around Europe, working and having fun with a variety of different people, eventually making my home in Amsterdam, Holland with my first husband, pets and working a nine to five job…  I experienced a secure married life for about 4 years, but it wasn’t for me… I craved freedom to explore more of life… I eventually found the courage to leave… (it was 1987/8, the Harmonic Convergence… a time that the Earth and her inhabitants were beginning to naturally awaken, remembering where they had come from)… I wanted my ex-husband to be able to find someone who would give him a family he wanted and for me to continue my search for a freedom that I so longed for…

open_your_heart_09Looking back this was my soul’s way of calling me to attention… it was time to start opening my eyes to who I truly was…  I had a good job at an International Company in Holland and enjoyed my working experience and living on my own… One of my neighbours was an older lady who took me under her wing and introduced me to the writings of Kristnamurti… They were very deep books, which inspired me to ponder my thoughts…

At my work a handsome gentleman had caught my eye, he had recently joined the company, working in the finance department… It didn’t take me too long to pluck up the courage to ask him if he wanted to take Ballroom and Latin dancing lessons with me… Tom said YES and we have never looked back on our relationship… this year, 2014 we are celebrating 25 years together… 

Funnily enough Tom had collected many books of Kristnamurti too, which we enjoyed reading together, having many in-depth discussions that went on into the early mornings, bonding us together deeply… in ways I find hard to explain…  During one of our first family birthday party’s I was given an English book… Out On A Limb by Shirley Maclaine… It literally blew my mind and world wide open and inspired me to explore deeper into myself and life… And as the saying goes, when the student is ready the teacher will appear…Peter, my spiritual teacher appeared and for the next 5 years I chose for him to help me explore the depths of myself… After all Kristnamurti had said… ‘You are the World’…

I learned how to feel with my heart, feeling into each moment what I liked and what was good for me… instead of relying on what other people thought was good for me and expected of me… My self-awareness expanded, I got to know myself, you could say I fell in love with myself, I trusted myself and I became important, extraordinary and magnificent…

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A new world was opening up for me and slowly but surely my old life, feelings, beliefs, relationships with family and friends fell away and I began to see things in a whole different light… I was not only feeling and sensing… what was important for me to experience, but I understood that I was part of something much bigger… I understood that there was truly no separation from what was out there and within me… My outer world mirrored my inner world and this helped me make sense of myself… I became deeply excited about exploring a new found multi-dimensional world that I was a part of… I was so much more than my physical human body and mind… I had a soul and spiritual essence that was part of me and connected to ALL… Source… Love… IAM everything and my unique magnificent self… IAM YOU and YOU ARE ME… We are all just separate in  different bodies for a while enjoying unique and individual human experiences…

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I began to enjoy walking in nature, feeling and seeing the beauty around me… I connected with it all… I began to paint and write… I changed my work and found different friends with whom I could discuss my new found awareness… I could no longer just talk about the weather, the mundane reality and drama that continued to happen in peoples life’s… I became less materialistic and more focused on expanding into a world beyond our known physical reality… to SOURCE itself… I no longer had a need to search for more… as it was ALL right here in the now moment and within me…  I was consciously breathing, living and allowing life to unfold… even the unpleasant things in life… were all part and parcel of my experience… showing me, teaching me to accept ALL… and allowing all the traumatised, unloved and frightened parts of me to come back to me and integrate as one…

We arranged for Tom to retire early and we made our move to live in Southern Spain… We wanted to leave the dreary weather and hectic life and settle into a quieter and warmer climate to experience peace, fun and find out what we were truly passionate about and enjoyed… The quietness enabled me to go deeper into myself and allowed me to connect with 9 New Elemental Beings… Aspects of myself that have shared wise insights over the last 7 years, to help me integrate, expand my body consciousness (Mind, Body and Spirit) and bring in New Potential…

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It wasn’t all quietness though… in fact we both experienced a lot of distraction and confrontation with people and situations around us… giving us another opportunity to face our fears and traumas that have been waiting patiently for release…  It was time for everything that no longer served me to come up, be noticed, accepted and released… I was again moving into a new space that I liked and resonated with and had friends and family around me that I could relax and enjoy fun and laughter with…

My body consciousness was coming into balance as I allowed myself to live my passion and create my dream… exploring new horizons in the New Energy Consciousness… I feel lighter and wiser now, loving and trusting myself completely… Of course I still get distracted and doubts come up, but no longer so loud or big… I take myself out into nature and breathe… consciously breathing, looking at my doubts… knowing now that they are all parts of myself, travelling home, to be welcomed, loved and to be one with ALL of me…

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I live gracefully and at ease with my magnificent self… and as my doubts calm… I know that my trust in ALL THAT IAM encourages the natural process of manifesting and creating my life… my passion and hearts desire welcome in new potential that allows the appropriate energy to come in and give birth to my grandest dream for myself and mankind…

Yes I have a grand dream… One heart at a time, humanity is naturally awakening to the truth of their own magnificence… remembering they come from and are a source of love… I stand among you all, here and now, firmly balanced… radiating my love and joy into the world… knowing that everything is perfectly well…

IAM Barbara Franken…. DivineHumanBeing…
Inspiring Living in the New Energy Consciousness…

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I received my wings… YES…

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Tom and myself playing king and elf…

The next Post, January 3rd is Emanuel’s awakening experience…
http://emantable.com/musings-of-a-table/

January Challenge Schedule…

1st     Barbara  – https://memymagnificentself.wordpress.com
2nd    Paddy    – http://paddypicasso.wordpress.com
3rd     Emanuel- http://emantable.com/musings-of-a-table/
6th     Julianne – http://juliannevictoria.com
7th     Sarah     – http://theskycladwriter.wordpress.com
8th     Shree     – http://heartsongsblog.wordpress.com
9th     Dace      – http://mywaytotruth.wordpress.com
10th   Korinn    – http://www.korinn.com
11th   Sindy     – http://bluebutterfliesandme.wordpress.com
12th   Stefanie – http://dancingwithstefanie.com
13th   Mick      – http://meticulousmick.wordpress.com
14th   Joss      – Postphoned
15th   Megan   – http://mychroniclifejourney.wordpress.com
16th   Pat         – http://patinspire.org
17th   Marga    – http://lifeasimprov.com
18th   Kimberley – http://kimberlyharding.wordpress.com
19th
20th   Serena      – not available at the moment
21st   Heather     – http://wildflowerwomen.wordpress.com
22nd
23rd    Sue          – http://suedreamwalker.wordpress.com
24th    M…          – http://seeingm.wordpress.com
25th    Brian G    – http://middlepane.com
26th    Dotta       – http://dottaraphels.wordpress.com
27th    CW          – http://sunflowerrosecw.wordpress.com
28th    Laurie       – http://lauriesnotes.wordpress.com
29th    Debra       – http://ptero9.com
30th    Linda        – http://lindalitebeing.wordpress.com
31st    Michael     – http://navigator1965.wordpress.com
February
1st      Leigh        – http://bluegrassnotes.wordpress.com
2nd     Shaman   – http://shamanictracking.com
3rd     Joss         – http://ccwow.wordpress.com
4th     Jenna       – http://jennadee222.wordpress.com
5th     Shelley     – http://livingwithshadows.wordpress.com
6th     Elisabeth  – http://almostspring.com
7th     Michael    – http://embracingforever.com
8th     Lehua       – http://amusingspirit.wordpress.com
9th     Aleya        – http://alohaleya.wordpress.com

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