Falling in LOVE… with IAM…

Infinite Love

I was about 27 when my new felt freedom of exploring life and experiencing what I liked and desired in life (of the previous 9 years from when I left the family nest at 18), began to filter into my consciousness…  I became aware of deep feelings inside of me, awakening a new sense of BEING… and life has continued to prompt me with signs, people and a knowingness that has guided my choosing and experiencing of my life in the NOW moment…

It has been a gradual unfolding of ‘all of me’.. as I have experienced, felt and responded to the last 26 years of my life and my part in it all…  Nearly 27 years of a most loving relationship with myself… a gradual ‘falling in love’ with myself, Barbara… a HumanBeing integrating and becoming one with my DivineBeing… IAM… all that is… Continue reading

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Infinite Love… A poem to my mum…

 Infinite Love
I REMEMBER feeling you for the first time, so soft and cuddly
and feeling a sense of belonging…
I REMEMBER blowing out my first birthday candle, making a mess
and bouncing in an indoor chair…
I REMEMBER playing with my sister outdoors and in our conservatory
watching the caterpillars, chrysalis and butterflies transform in jam-jars…
I REMEMBER taking care of our pet guinea-pig, rabbit and cat
and the pony who still remains in my imagination…
I REMEMBER hearing the piano played, the fingers so fluent on the keys
and my music lessons on the guitar…
I REMEMBER playing with my friends in the park and digging
our garden with my dad and sister…
I REMEMBER trips to my grandparents in the country and in the town
celebrating family birthdays, weddings and christmas..
I REMEMBER the inner joy I always felt at christmas time, santa’s sherry
and mince pie, made possible by you and dad’s love and excitement…
I REMEMBER us going away on holidays, riding donkeys,
making sandcastles and running on the beach and into the sea…
I REMEMBER watching you wash the clothes and dishes, cleaning
the house and you teaching me to iron…
I REMEMBER loving to watch films with my dad and sister
and crackerjack at 5 to 5…
I REMEMBER your love for flowers, the smell of your roses
and admiring your green fingers…
I REMEMBER feeling rebellious, a sense of conflict between me and
the outside world and being called mary-mary-quite-contrary…
I REMEMBER finding it hard to breathe for a while and feeling
an inner urge to explore, find freedom and who I truly was…
I REMEMBER you letting me go… to begin my adventure alone,
my wings expanded in confidence, I took off to discover beyond…
The sprinkle of your love and joy has grown so big within me, flowing over
and becoming one with my own love of self…
Your nurturing is my nurturing, your love is my love, your joy is my joy,
you are and IAM one…
Each morning I awake in a bundle of love, have a sense of joy and
excitement and arise to create another best moment exploring all that is…
I turn my head around and feel your embrace, I gently kiss you
on the cheek and silently thank you for being you…
LOVE IS INFINITE… YOU AND ME… I LOVE YOU 
Your loving daughter Barbara xxx 
Not only for Mothers Day 2013 but for every day…